Choir Disappointment, etc.

So I'm going on choir tour in two weeks-ish. We got an itinerary today. It's disappointing to me. Our original destination was Texas, but that wasn't turning out so well so they re-planned it for Montreal. I was excited about that - I have friends in Montreal and it would be really cool to go out there. I suggested churches we could sing at and everything. But now that we got the itinerary, and Montreal's not on there. The farthest we're going is Ontario.
I have a friend in Ontario. I hoped that we would go to her city, and I even passed on those contacts. But we're not going there. We'll be near there, but not there.
They asked us, those of us who are graduating, if we had any special requests to add to our rep, any songs we want to sing one last time. I'd really love to sing Abide with Me, or His Eye is on the Sparrow, so I requested those. And we're not doing them.
And the choir's chaplain, the sweetest person ever, kinda blew me off today.
Sometimes I have a hard time feeling like I am a valued part of the choir. Sometimes it seems like all the decisions they make are against what matters to me. This feeling used to be more acute; this year it has been somewhat better. But these events bring back those feelings.
I'm nervous about tour as it is. It's always difficult for me. I don't really do well away from home. And I have no bus buddy.

This has been "no make-up week." Interestingly enough, I relate this to my thesis workload - but it came the week that I'm finished it, not the week I was working on it. I guess that was the time for action (make-up friendly), and this is the time for rest (make-up lazy).

The snow today is insanity. And that's all I have to say about that.