Double Feature

I had two big events tonight. It was my big spring choir concert, and it was also my store's two year anniversary party.

The choir concert was okay. Everyone said we sounded great, and everything went well. And my Mom came, so that was really nice. But the theme of the whole concert was love, and to me love feels like nothing. And during the practice I had a really hard time being assertive when our monitor was turned up too high, which made me feel awful and brought back the discouragement of this past week. So I had a hard time enjoying this concert, and I even cried.

My store was having a party to celebrate our two year anniversary at a super pub, and I stopped by after my choir concert was done. I didn't get there until after 10:30 and most people had left by then, but I thought it was worth making an appearance anyway. And I ended up staying for two and a half hours - I closed the place down! (I don't think I've ever done that before. Actually, I'm pretty sure I haven't.) First I saw Steve there, and we started bowling. (I am awful at bowling. hahaha) Then Bryan came along and joined us and Steve left. Then Jared and Aaron came along and we bowled some more. Then the night ended with just Aaron and I left, talking. He was really drunk, and he told me about his dead dog and then he invited me to his cabin in BC, like, a hundred times (and he insisted I could have my own trailer, which helped clarify what he wasn't saying). He told me that I am awesome and I am the coolest girl he's ever met - in fact, I'm cool as sh*t. I think it was the alcohol talking, but I trust that he meant a little bit of what he said. It's nice to know that I'm liked.

I enjoyed the time with my coworkers more than I enjoyed the time with my choir. I felt much more stable, and more likeable too. It feels strange, though, that my preferred community isn't Christian.