So I got my hours back at work after only missing one weekend. I went in on Mon to buy milk and they said "Hey, has anyone called you yet?! I think I can get you some hours!" and then a few minutes later they came back with the schedules binder and penciled me back in for this weekend. And then on my way out they said, "Hey, can you work tomorrow?" and I pretty much always say yes, and unfortunately I answered before I remembered all the homework I needed to do. So I was back yesterday already. And you know, that was weird. It was nice to have everyone say they were glad I was back. But I expected it to last much longer than a week, and the emotional preparation I'd done for the long haul doesn't just evaporate. I still feel the compulsive need to try to be frugal, and I'm trying to figure out when I'm going to get my copious amounts of homework done now and what to do with the weekend plans I've made.
I had a presentation in class today (the last one). It was on the Testament of Job, Part 2. I think I bored half the class, but other than that I think it went alright. The guy beside me said I set the bar high for everyone else, and I didn't feel like I did because I didn't do anything especially creative, but I guess I did have a lot to talk about (blah blah blah blah). This was the one that I wanted to get the paper finished for as well, and although it's not finished I have a lot done on it. It's getting longer than it needs to be, but there's so much good stuff to say! I feel good about it's progress, but I'm not sure whether I should put the time into finishing it now while it's still fresh, or if I should go on to the more pressing assignments (like my thesis).
To get enough work done on this paper and presentation I pulled an all-nighter last night. And that actually felt really good. Time goes so fast in the middle of the night and it was nice to not have to worry about getting to bed. Plus, there's a feeling of control in self-denial/self-destruction. I knew I was staying up because I chose to, and that felt empowering. Today it was so nice to feel unstable because I hadn't slept instead of feeling unstable for no reason at all - way better. Plus I was actually on time for my 8:15 today, and that never happens! But it was hard to pay attention through my classes, and coincidentally today one of my profs gave us the 'catch up on your sleep! you'll be way more productive if you get enough rest!' advice. I got home from school and took a 4 1/2 hour nap, and that was also pretty nice.
My fashion style is strong enough to wear pants with a skirt! I feel really uncomfortable when I dress too far outside of my style, so I wasn't sure how this would go today. Because I was doing a presentation in class I wanted to dress up, but because I hadn't slept I wanted to be comfortable, and it was cold-ish out this morning so I didn't want bare legs. So I wore a skirt over top of jeans with heels. And it was great!
I got a call from Dad tonight. He said that Karen moved out yesterday. I don't have any new sadness left for the situation. He didn't sound upset. But I guess it's hard for her; she's staying with her daughter and she said something about not having a home. That would be rough. But nothing in this situation is easy, and I think it's better if they just stop dragging it out (althought that may just be me).
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Just so you know, I didn't find your presentation boring at all! I thought you had a lot of important and interesting facts that shed quite a bit of light on the intertestamental period (e.g. Jewish mysticism, Therepeutae, & views on women). Despite the lack of any flashy medium, the quality of the information and its presentation was undeniable. Not only that, but you had the quality that makes all presentations just that much better: passion for your subject! When you're excited about it, you make me excited about it. I don't think anyone was bored at all.
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