Sponge

I've noticed a lot of self-absorption in myself lately. I tend to be relatively aware of my experience of a situation, even if the situation itself is focused on another person. I often talk from an egocentric perspective and share particular views in situations where they have little positive value. I say some pretty shallow things. I've felt really distracted lately and it's been hard to listen to other people. And I'm not proud of this self-absorption. I want to try to be less self-focused. I want to have a generous heart.

But that endeavour kinda sucks because there's so much failure. Even acknowledging and monitoring the problem requires paying a lot of attention to myself. Sigh.