Spiritual Exhaustion

If we engage in too much physical exertion, we will become physically exhausted. If we are involved in too many emotionally draining situations, we will become emotionally exhausted. And if we have an excess of spiritual experiences in a short time, we can find ourselves spiritually exhausted.

It makes sense, doesn't it. But it's not a fun idea. I remember my spiritual life in high school and how I just wanted as much as time could hold - as much worship, as much prayer, as much reading, as much experience of God as I could get. Maybe this was spiritual gluttony, as "spiritual sweet tooth." It can't last, and it didn't.

Today was Day of Prayer at school. It started at 9:00 AM and went 'til a little after 3:00. I planned to attend the whole thing, but I slept in and didn't get there until 12:30. I had wondered about how I would fare after a whole day of spiritual exercize, and it turned out that I felt spiritually listless and exhausted after only the few hours of prayer and worship that I attended.

It must be considered that the healthy have more stamina than the sick, and can go for so much longer before that exhaustion hits them. Maybe that explains why I became drained so quickly. My soul just feels sick. And when you are empty and have little strength to begin with, action can quickly take it all.

O God, come and heal me, that I might have the spiritual energy to seek and love Thee.